A Beautiful Spring Saturday Morning

One more chemo down - tons more information learned. I am so very greatful for all of my children and grandchildren. You know, when we were first given this diagnosis I had just previously told myself that I wouldn't go through chemo again....and then I saw the smiling eyes of my grandchildren and knew that now was the time to face it, accept it, stare it down and go for the win. Interestingly enough, my first cancer diagnosis was given to me by a tech in radiology at WVMC - I worked with her at second job. She didn't say a word - she was showing the radiologist what she found on the ultrasound and just in turning her head away I saw the tears on her cheek. This time, my PA and a doctor I worked with at the same hospital could barely tell us. My PA and I were in school together. I had to hold them together - a cancer diagnosis is easy to miss and they had indeed missed the first film - it was caught through a routine blood test and for that I am so greatful to them. All of a sudden now this has become harder each day, and not just physically. The emotional toll is unbelieveable. I think mostly because I have worked since age 12 and now I am going to retire through work disability in order to save the cost of my insurance. Financially, we'll be fine - we love what we have been given and appreciate the guidance you have all offered. Well, it is about time for some rest (after a shower!) Please be patient with me while I am trying to become more patient with life in general. Remember that I don't like to see presents sitting around unwrapped? Well, I want the good health package open now - not months down the road - but now. I shall practice deep breathing. MEDICATION UDATE: I take sooo any meds now that I have them divided a.m. and p.m. Unfortunately I forget to take the evening ones. I have requested and received a sweet young voice from Portland to call me each and every evening to take my pills. Thanks Sammi - keep the boys all smiling in my camera - Time to rest. Love you all - mom